Monday, June 11, 2012

2WeeksofSummer + VLOG

Ahoy!

...
What am I, a pirate?

Let's try again.

Hey!
So I haven't posted anything in a while which sucks for me. And you. Of course.

So to make up for it, here's some chocolate!
Ahahah. No.

How about a short film? Huh? Yeah? YES.

In all seriousness, I shot this all in one day and edited it too.

Thanks to my brother for filming some scenes.
And for convincing me to lie down in the street. WAIT WHAT!??!

Just watch it. And tell me what you think. Seriously.
Comment here, on FaceBook and/or on YouTube.
I'll use the comments for the next project. Tell me what you'd like to see
and I'll do my best to meet your requests.


Also a good friend of mine is away for ten weeks so I'm going to try to get a new 
Lost Weekends up every week for ten weeks straight. Boy-oh.


Also shout outs to my two new friends, Mauricio and Katie. You guys are the best. 



Music (so I don't get in trouble...lame. I know)

_________________________________________
Ryan McTear - Jazzish

Ryan McTear - It's Miller Time
Ryan McTear - Electro Chill
David Choi - I Chose Happiness



Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Real Talk.

Hey.

Hey you.

Yeah you.

You know exactly who I'm talking to. If you don't, well then either I'm messed up or you are.


And we both know which one it is.


I DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND YOU. YOU DON'T MAKE  FUCKING SENSE.

I have tried everything to get your attention.

I texted you.
I Facebooked you.
I commented on things you did.
I even went 8 days vegetarian for you.
I EVEN MADE THIS FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT BLOG FOR YOU.


And you...
you don't even give me the time of day.

We used to talk.
We talked about shit, random crap but I didn't care. Those were the best times.

I used to think that the feelings are mutual.
I was just too scared to ask you out.
Too scared to just "Hey! I like you. I really like you. Would you like to join me for some ice cream/movie/an adventure in a magical police box that could transport through space and time?"

But I didn't. I was too shy. I was too much of a fucking little girl to man up and just straight up ask you what the fuck was up.

What is it about you? I don't know but everytime I see you, I lose the ability to keep my composure and I don't know what to say and I just sit there, pretending to  do my "work" so it looks like I'm busy so that you don't think that I'm a crazy guy (which I am! Ha!), who is just sitting there, doing nothing, looking nowhere.

I never know how to just casually walk up to you to start a conversation and everytime I try, you just ignore me or give me one word answers.

And all of the confidence I mustered up to even walk up to you instantly vanishes and I stand there like an idiot. So I quickly run back to my seat and really buckle down to get some intense nothing done.

My shyness or fear or whatever you call it was...stupid, for lack of a better word.

Ha! Not anymore.
I'm tired of this bullshit.
Tired of the games.
Tired of over-analyzing every fucking word/comment/text/look you gave.

I know that if I don't ask you what's up, I'll regret this down the road.
And we can't have that (SENIORS 2012! NO REGRETS!)

Regardless of what you say, I need some closure.

So let's end this.




To everyone else, guess what.

I cried today for the first time in 5 years.

Not like a little girl.
Not like a dying old lady.
Just a few tears ran down my face.

And. It. Felt. Good.

"Why? Why are you so mad/sad/angry/confused/heartless/insertanyotheradjectiveyouwant today?"
Everyone asked me that question.


I wish I could tell someone. I wish I could tell anyone.

But today I felt more alone than any other day in my existence.
Today I felt sad.

No.
Not just sad.
Empty, useless, void, worthless, terrible, undeserving, conceited, miserable, sad.

As I suffocated in my own self loathing, a single phrase rang in my head:

I have no one.
I have nothing.

I am nothing. 
I have no one.
I have nothing.
I am nothing.
 I have no one.
I have nothing.
I am nothing.
 I have no one.
I have nothing.
I am nothing.
 I have no one.
I have nothing.
I am nothing. 


Overandoveroveroveroveroverover again. I don't know what triggered this but today these feelings hit me like a truck, ran me over, and then backed up over me again for good measure.

All of the pressure that I held inside kept on bubbling up and up and....
I just couldn't take it anymore.

I just felt so alone.

My whole life, I've lived with a small but horrific notion:

If I can't ditch you in a moment without feeling sad, I don't want to get close to you.

I've never had a best friend and I've never really had good friends or friends in general. Just people I associated with, did dumb things with.

But in the back of my mind, I knew that I could leave these people and never talk to them again. That I could ditch them.

And then this year.
When I think about cutting off some of these people, I go fucking insane.

This year I have met some of the most incredible people in my life, possibly the world.

They have stuck with me regardless of what I did, said, anything.
They have never betrayed me or let me down.
And they have never given up on me.

Even when I gave up on myself.


So I wanna say thanks. I could name names but I don't need to. These people didn't help me out for the gratitude, fame, money, compliments.

No.
These people saved me because they believed in me.

And I realize that I should believe in me too.

Thanks.



And it seems I may have found what I truly thought would remain lost.





Monday, May 28, 2012

LASTDAYS

First off, new Lost Weekend. I have enough footage to make up until LW5 but....
as you know, I'm lazy. Oh so very lazy.

But to the title.

As a graduating senior, I have only THREE. DAYS. LEFT. OF SKOOL.

All of my learning will have come down to this moment.

Anddddd it's bittersweet.

But it's whatever.

Time to do this. Finish a ride that lasted twelve years of public schooling.




Thursday, May 10, 2012

PROM PROPOSAL!


Ha! I lied! I finished a lot of stuff last night (JK. It's still untouched) so I decided to tackle all of my projects, the first being a prom video for my friends.

They will remain nameless (Hey, Matt! Hi, Sami!)
Never will I divulge that secret information. EVER.

First time editing a prom proposal but it was cool setting up the shots
and then...editing it. Wow. Not alotta steps here but still fun.

And my repertoire increases!

Enjoy, as always.






ANDITHINKIMIGHTBEABLETODOSOMEOTHERPROJECTSTODAYBUT
ICANTGURANTEEANYTHINGBECAUSEIMTERRIBLEATPROMISESJK
IMIDDINGWOWISAYJKALOTWHY?IDK.IDONTKNOWAHH!SOMANY
ACRONYMNS.

My Apologies

Hey. Hey. You. You. Me. Me.

...WTF?

SO. You may have noticed that I haven't posted anything in a while.

Lots of AP TESTING( life of an Asian) so I've been studying hardish? Yeah, its tough.

Im actually studying right now so....GIVE
GIVE ME DAT FIVE !

But I still have stuff planned so look out for that!

And things are happening to Team Swipe so check out the [+Team Swipe] tab! Such as Nike Night in Saturday!

Hope to see you there!
But until then, get lost.



.....





Get it? Like lost? Like the name of the...uh....forget it.
Just leave.  

Sunday, May 6, 2012

LHNFVlogs - Cupcake Catastrophe

IM VLOGGING NOW.

WOO BOY.

So whenever I think of something, I'll vlog it.
It's going to be pretty random. Just sayin.



Thursday, May 3, 2012

"Sol y Viente" Lost Episode

So
if you read the title, you must be asking " WHADDAFUXUP!?"

And yes. That is the correct response.

I was recently hired by some people to create a Spanish project for them
and this is the result.

My first project in another langauge so it was interesting working out some challenges!

Over the next couple of weeks, I will be working on EVEN MORE PROJECTS!
So get ready.


Enjoy!



Sunday, April 29, 2012

Lost Weekends Tab!

Hey!

So here it is!
Lost Weekends Episode one!

My first time vlogging and .... it's interesting. I kinda like it and hopefully
I'll get better at it!

Perhaps!


So where is the actual video?
There is a new tab now that's specifically for Lost Weekends. So check it out!

Guest appearance by Wifey from hugs-aint-free.blogspot.com
and my brother....who is cool, I guess?


Saturday, April 28, 2012

HAF & LHNF: Dare Week 2012 - Day Four [Final Day]

So.

It finally ends.
I have been swamped with a lot of projects, homework and other things
I am working on for myself or for others who have hired me.

BUT I HAVE KEPT MY PROMISE.
I have finished Dare Week 2012! And the subsequent videos! So ha!

Please enjoy.
And start commenting for the best Dares for Dare Week 2013 so we can have the best DW so far!
YAH!





Have fun, fellas and ladies let loose. (I don't know what that means but alliterations are cool.) 

Friday, April 27, 2012

Girls Don't Make Sense. Fact.

Girls.

They are crazy, kooky and caustic. But. You can't help it. You have to like them.

This post started out as an idea at lunch but has now become more.


[WHY THEY DON'T MAKE SENSE]
1. They are the opposite sex.
-Just this fact alone makes them un-understandable.

2.They "drop" hints.
-WRONG! As a guy, I can personally say that I am not good at hints. At all. EVER. You'd have to come out and say "Hey! I like you! Ask me out already!" or will not get the hint. A couple females tried to convince me otherwise and here's what happened:

Girls say: I'm fine.
What Girls Mean: They are having a bad day and they want you to shower them with compliments.
What Guys think: That the girl is fine. That's all.

Girls say: Heyyy! (Note the phenemenon known as the "Triple Y")
What Girls Mean: To talk to you.
What Guys Think: She wants the "D."

Girls say: .....my friend needs/wants/etc.
What Girls Mean: I want/I need/ I etc. (THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT THEMSELVES)
What Guys think: Hmm. I guess her friend needs a lot of help.

Or it could be this:

Anything Girls Say: BLAHBLAHBLAH
Girls Mean: somethingsomethingsomething
What Guys Think: SHE WANS THE "D." REGARDLESS OF WHAT SHE SAID.
(Please note: this is usually never the case.)

But it's also on the reverse.

What Guys Say: You wanna hang?
What Girls Think (I think?): He thinks I'm just a friend.
What Guys Actually Mean: I like this girl and I want to spend some time with her to get to know her without freaking her out.

And so on.





The interactions with the opposite sex seems to continously play the game "Telephone."
You may think you're saying something right but by the time it gets to the ears of the intended target, the meanings. ARE. JUST. WRONG.





So next time you are talking to the opposite sex, try to change what you are going to say....umm....no.
Make it right?.....No that's not it.

I GOT IT!

Just don't talk to the opposite sex. There! That should fix it.



So you can die alone.
Hoo-rah.



What do you think? Am I wrong?
Leave your comments below. I really care about them. I really do.

Monday, April 23, 2012

Calm Before the Storm

Hey!

 Calm Before the Storm
So a lot of things are happening and it's getting crazy and you should know about them!
There are ten points, starting with:


1.
I have first decided where I will be attending college! It was tough but it came down to financial aid which sucks. I had decided on majoring in theoretical/particle/quantum physics and minoring in criminology. But now I'm not sure.
As a child, my greatest fascination was with multimedia. I have loved coming up with an idea, screenplay writing, set design, shooting, editing and publishing any sort of video, whether it be a short film, music video, rap, commercial, anything. I have loved it always and I realized something:

If you have the talent, the motivation and courage to follow your dreams, you'd be stupid to not follow them.

So I have decided to minor in film studies and film production. But who knows? Maybe I'll major in it....
Maybe I'll be the next "big" thing.....who knows?



2.
I have started a long list of projects for the next couple of months and for the summer. Look at the side bars for   more recent updates on "Current Projects." I'm writing the screenplay for "PROM" and I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE EXTRA ACTORS/ACTRESSES! That means you!
(People I have worked with in the past have said that the experience was an enjoyable one so if you are interested, comment below! Or Facebook me! Let's create something great!)


3.
A couple of organizations have asked me to create/ design some commercials and logo/t-shirt designs for them! It's nothing too big or fancy but it's a step to becoming big!


4.
On Friday, I was a leader at the Youth Frontiers "Respect Retreat" and there I met some wonderful people, especially Heatherlyn. She is a new up and coming artist  that tours all across the country with lots of catchy heartfelt songs. And she's also a wonderful person who genuinely cares about people. We started talking and she gave me her card so I recommend everybody check her out! I also showed her Team Swipe and I will be showing her my projects when they are finished! YAH!
For Heatherlyn and her awesome music: http://www.heatherlynmusic.com/
For Youth Frontiers: http://www.youthfrontiers.org/

5.
Team Swipe has been practicing very hard to perform well at the upcoming Team Tournament so we hope that you can make it out! Check back for more information! Also, a TS documentary is in the making!

6.
I spent yesterday helping my friend get ready for prom and also helped him buy some new clothes for his wardrobe. He has chosen me to be his personal trainer, fashion expert and wing man and for that, I am truly honored.

7.
I also spent the entire day with HAF's Wifey and a lot of chaos ensued. Which brings up the point of vlog weekends. People told me that I have interesting, spontaneous weekends filled with crazy ideas and I think you should be able to experience them with me, even if you can't be there. So I am creating and editing
"Lost Weekends." So be on the look out for that!

8.
And today I spent the majority of the day with some friends and we had a HUGE food drive, visiting in grand total (over five days) 200+ houses, collecting non-perishables for Interfaith Outreach. And it was a great success! We'll be heading over to Interfaith Outreach tomorrow to drop off our success!


9.
Oh yeah.
I'VE ALMOST GRADUATED. SOO CLOOSE.
Final push.


10.
I titled this post "Calm Before the Storm" because I feel as though major things are about to come my way. Good things. Exciting things. I'm just biding my time before things explode.

And I am ready.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

HAF & LHNF: Dare Week 2012 - Day Three

Third episode.


Titled "Basketball Movies" Not the best title but hey! I'm almost human.


Episode three is not the BEST it could be but the fans were impatient so yeah.




Any dare ideas? Comment below or on Facebook or  on YouTube!

Enjoy.




Tuesday, April 17, 2012

HAF & LHNF: Dare Week 2012 - Day Two

Second video.

Titled "A Very Bright Three Words." Get it? Cause...yeah.
The week just keeps getting better and better.

Any dare ideas? Comment below or on Facebook or YouTube!

Enjoy.

Music by David Choi

HAF & LHNF: Dare Week 2012 - Day One

So it begins...
The first video.

Title? "Touching Power Rangers"

Hmm.
Enjoy, my friends. And the week has just begun.




Appearances by:
-Me
-Wifey
-My friends
-Vice Principal
-Mo Pro Teachers
and random other kids that happen to go our school that happened to be caught on video that happened to make it to the final cut of the video. Very lucky indeed.

Also subscribe to the official LHNF YouTube Channel. Shameless plugs are the best.

http://www.youtube.com/user/LHNFblogspot/featured


Monday, April 16, 2012

A Look Back In Time + Creeper Friends

So my friend decided to Google my name and she -.

Wait.
The above sentence is extremely weird. But she's cool like that...I guess.

So she Googled my name and found a random essay I wrote for a scholarship some time ago.

Apparently I made it as a quarter finalist and I didn't even know. Hooray.

But here's what I wrote back then. I have inputted  my own commentary. Enjoy.




►  Quarter Finalist 2011 Teen Travel Writing Scholarship



INDIA 2010: Family, Food, Fun, Fantastic and Family...Again

Kanyakumari - The Tip of India

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Q & A with Team Swipe

OK.


Today, six people just today asked me what exactly Team Swipe is.

And I will answer it right here.



Back in 2009, my brothers and I started to trick. If for some ABSURD reason you don't know what tricking is, here are some videos showing what it is.








I decided that instead of being random people who could trick, we should make a team or at least a group that people could recognize us by. The first idea was "Team Triple Threat" but that idea quickly died due to lack of popularity and because the team kept growing.


I came up with the idea of "Team Swipe." The name was simple, catchy and most importantly, interesting enough to pique the interests of others (which is why you are reading this!).


"Well, why 'swipe'? Why not something else?" 


Good question, reader. And the answer comes in two parts.


One: 
Swipe is a tricking term. When a tricker (one who tricks) jumps up and kicks with their dominant leg and LAND on that same leg, that is considered a "swipe." As a team, we did many swipe techniques and I felt that the swipe accurately portrayed who we are.


Two:
The second reason was...due to randomness. I was playing around with different ideas and "swipe" came to mind first. We could be under a different name today. And we might change the name down the road.




Q: So what is Team Swipe exactly?
A: Team Swipe is Minnesota-based martial arts tricking team that is recognized both nationally and internationally. We are a group of athletes that love to not only trick but to help spread the word about tricking to the masses. We are teachers in this new sport. We are people who push the human body to the limits in order to fly. At least without special effects and wires. 




Q: Who is on Team Swipe?
A: Currently, there are 10 members. We are continuing to grow and we don't have a team limit. We will take all those who truly love tricking and what we stand for.


Q; How can I contact Team Swipe?
A: You can subscribe to Team Swipe on YouTube. We currently have three YouTube accounts for the three founders. Make sure to subscribe to them all!


1. http://www.youtube.com/user/TeamSwipeVM/featured
2. http://www.youtube.com/user/TEAMSWIPESM
3. http://www.youtube.com/user/TeamSwipeRM


Q: What are the goals of Team Swipe?
A: Well, the goals of Team Swipe are always changing. But we hope to perhaps be in the entertainment industry one day. We also have our own tricking goals.


       I was the fifth person in history to do a Cheat 1260 Round Kick and the first person to do a standing Backside 1440 Hook Kick. But I'm not done. When I return to tricking (I'm injured at the moment) I hope to be the first person to break into 2000 degree spins with a Pop 2160 Hook kick. (Cheat 1260 and Backside 1440 videos are on YouTube) 


     We also want to make tricking and Team Swipe known worldwide. We are recognized but we'd love to be sponsored by Converse and other brands in order to further tricking and Team Swipe. 




[SHAMLESS PLUG]
 Team Swipe will be heading back to the National Karate Team Tournament but this time we're in the Champions division!


Last year, after winning first place for five years in a row, Team Swipe was upgraded to the
 Champions Division, where we will compete with the best of the best. Only one team gets 
upgraded every 5 years so we are very grateful for this opportunity

Come cheer us on and see some awesome martial artists.

It's an all day event filled with karate, food and just fun!



[THE INFO YOU NEED]
Who: Team Swipe and you!
What: All day karate tournament!
Where: Doubletree by Hilton Hotel in Bloomington, MN (The tournament is all around the hotel!)
When: May 19, 2012  from 8:00 am to 5:00 pm
Why: Because you will see Team Swipe and just to have fun! 


I really want you to be there. Seriously.


Hope to see you there!



Friday, April 13, 2012

Beyond the "V"


So.

Today at lunch, we discussed many things.

But the highlight was on shirts. Mostly v necks.

I don't know how the conversation turned to shirts and frankly, I don't care.

But then we started thinking about other ideas for shirts.

Through an interesting lunch, we all came up with different ideas for new shirts. Which was basically just shouting out different letters.

Here is my finished product.
Note: Some letters such as "L" were too explicit to wear.
Double Note: Please don't be too harsh about my Paint skills. 



Beyond the "V" - A journey through the wonder that is shirt. 


Productivity is at an all time low, my friends. But as always, no regrets. 

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

New Stuff + New Update + New Tabs

So you may have noticed (you being loyal fans! Hopefully you still exist somewhere....) that there are some new tabs on the side.


[Musick...Lame. Music] Music that I fancy. 


[VIDEOS THAT YOU SHOULD TAKE A GANDER AT] Videos from around the Web that I really enjoy.


And the newest one
[Short Stories] I realize that as a kid, I used to write a lot of stories. And somewhere along the way, I quit being a kid and stopped enjoying storytelling. NO MORE. Here will be new stories and updates to ongoing stories. Such as part 2 of "April" which is the title I gave the first story I wrote specifically for LHNF. Unless someone has a better name (fingers crossed!).

So check out the tabs weekly because they will be changing.


Here is part 2 of "April." But from now on, all updates for stories will be in [Short Stories] 






"April"
Part Two


He didn't want to wake up. 


He just had had a wonderful dream. An amazing dream. Possibly the best dream ever.


He had fallen asleep of course thinking about April. Everyday, he kept falling in love with her again.

Wait.



Was this love? He wasn't sure what love was. He had never felt "love" before. Not from his friends. Not from his siblings. Especially  not from his parents.


This feeling though. It was way too powerful to just be a crush. He wasn't sure what to call it but he didn't really care. He liked the feeling and that's all that mattered.


But that night, he ran through his encounters with April again and again. He thought about the first encounter back at the party.


He thought about the green and black striped sweater that she had worn with tight blue jeans and the bright purple shoes. Ha! No one else he knew could pull off that outfit. Except her.


Then when he found that she went to his high school, he jumped for joy. Literally. He ran around his house just yelling, causing his parents to scream at him but he didn't care. She was back in his life.


Then how they talked almost everyday. When they didn't talk, he felt like shit. He felt like it was all his fault. He kept thinking that he did something wrong. But then they would talk and he would quickly retreat back to Cloud 9. 


As of the moment, they had not spoken in a while. He felt terrible. Everyone else around him seemed so damn happy, with their special ones and there he was, lonely and miserable. He wanted to scream at the world. At himself. Especially her.


He wanted to just yell.
"
WHY? WHY DON'T YOU NOTICE ME!? I TRY TO GET YOUR ATTENTION EVERY FUCKING DAY. I LOVE MAKING YOU LAUGH. I LOVE MAKING YOU SMILE. I LOVE JUST BEING ABLE TO TALK TO SOMEONE SO INTERESTING, SO DIFFERENT, SO COOL. SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME.  BUT YOU DON'T EVEN SEE ME. WHEN YOU TALK TO OTHER GUYS, I FEEL SO FUCKING JEALOUS. I FEEL SICK TO MY STOMACH BUT I SHOW NO EMOTION. WHY? GOD DAMN IT." 


But he wouldn't, couldn't yell that. He had to keep his composure. 
But he wanted to be done. He wanted to move on.
But he just couldn't. Especially not after the dream.


They were walking. She was walking just a couple of steps ahead of him. They had just come from a school play and were backing to his car. He was hoping to ask her out to a movie or dinner or something, anything.
But she kept saying she was busy or she had to do something. 


He jokingly said "Haha why are you so busy all the time? It's amazing how much you are in demand. I'm glad we were able to spend even this time together.
 "Haha yeah. You should scrapbook tonight. Remember it for the rest of you life."

"Of course I will. I don't wanna forget this moment."
"Me neither." 


He paused. She kept walking. He quickly next to her.



"Wait!"
"Yeah?" She asked.

"We don't have to forget this moment."
"What do you mean?" She asked with a smile.
"You and I. This doesn't have to end right here.We could make this work. We could make this happen."
"Well what are you trying to say?" An even bigger smile spread across her face.
"What I mean is...I would like to take you out. to dinner. To a movie. To the beach. To anything."


As he saw her face drop, he quickly added "I mean just as friends."

"No."



There. There it was. The answer he had dreaded. 


"No. I don't wanna go as just friends."


His heart forgot to beat.


"I really like you."


She moved in close and gave an indescribable kiss on his cheek.

"About time.
"   

Warning: Sappy Post

Best friends.

They don't come often. I, myself, have never had a best friend.

But I just had a two hour conversation with this person.

They are most likely my best shot for having a best friend.

She is the best. She is a friend.



I think I know the next step here.

Oh boy. The times are changing now. 

Monday, April 9, 2012

Where I Get Picked Up By a Creeper?

So

yesterday, I was on Facebook. For a couple of minutes. Promise.

I was minding my own business when I receive a notification. Which always makes my heart race for some reason. I always hope it's someone interesting or whatever. But's usually it's someone liking something or commenting about a comment. Or due to grad party season, grad party invites.

So I check my notifications. There I find that this "Kate Thomas" had tagged me in something.

I don't remember friending this Kate Thomas. I always friend people I know so ....this was weird.

When I checked the post, I was. APPALLED. DISGUSTED. SHOCKED.

This random Kate Thomas tagged me in ....an....what should we call it? AN ADULT VIDEO.

WHY!? OH WHY!!?

She tagged me in a random movie of adults.....yeah.

I quickly removed the tag and then went to see who this Kate Thomas was.
She or he or whatever had only the generic profile pics.

I then was about to leave when I receive another notification. Ding! Oh a message! Whom could it be?

None other than Kate Thomas.

This creep starts asking me "Where do you live?" and "What's your real name?" and various other personal questions.

I defriend them and log off.

Moral of the story? Be careful who you friend. They may be he/she creepers that secretly want you to come their homes. 

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Home is Where the Hans Are

Inspired

I read a recent post on a blog and was inspired to write this.


It's the first part in a mini series I guess. I don't have a title at the moment.
It's different than my usual and it's kinda sad.
But I hope you enjoy. I really do.




Had he seen her before?
He must have. She seemed too...real. Too...he didn't know the words to use. She seemed refreshing, insightful, cunning, different, and every other adjective that he could think of. It didn't hurt that she was cute too.

What he enjoyed about her most was that she was herself, regardless of the situation.

He always struggled in that department. He felt as though he was constantly changing who he was to fit in. He would be funny with one group of people than quickly change into someone else with the next.

Maybe he was that way because his family had moved 12 times in four years. Maybe because he was an immigrant instead of a citizen of the wonderful United States of America.
When you are the new kid so many times, you start to forget who you are and he lacked and longed for an identity.


Which is why he liked this girl.

He thinks back to when he first met her. Back at that one party in the summer. He didn't want to go but his friends dragged him along and that's when he met her.

If there was one thing that he liked about himself, it was the fact that he tried to be outgoing. He saw the girl and he casually walked up to her and they started talking. As usual, the talk was all crap but switched over to college.

"So you're a senior?"
"Yep. At my high school. Off to college I go next year." Off to college I go? Idiot. What was that? Clever lines, Mr. Bond.
"Yeah, me too. I'm excited though! A new adventure, new place, a new chapter in our lives."
"Frankly, I'm a little scared."

She paused for a moment before asking "Why? You seem like a cool guy who enjoys a good time."
"It just...I don't know. It's just I have worked hard to make it here. I mean, I don't get straight A's but I do well and my friends like me and I don't want that to change."

"So you're going to throw it all away to stay the same? You can't be afraid of change."

He didn't know how to respond to that. And he wouldn't get a chance to.
The girl had to leave somewhere and all of a sudden, everything quickened. His hands became sweatier, his heart started to beat at a higher pace, his vision narrowed down to seeing only the girl walk away.

"Wait!" He called. "I never got your name."

She shouted over her back, " Haha, you never asked. It's April. Nice to meet you."
And then she walked away.


When he crawled into bed later that morning, he could only think of one thing: her. Every few seconds, he'd think about something else, like his increasing homework pile but then he'd quickly switch back to her. And every time he did, he'd get that familiar butterfly feeling. A feeling that he'd started to like.

He just couldn't get her out of his head. Just constantly thinking about her. He wasn't crazy or a stalker but he did friend her on Facebook and he did creep on her pictures and he did creep on her wall.

Maybe he was a creep but he couldn't help himself. Temptation had control of him.

As he started to fall asleep, he thought about previous girls he liked.

There was the girlfriend back in first grade but that didn't count anyway.

There was the girl in fourth grade, who had kissed him on the cheek and he melted on the spot. But when he saw her kiss another boy, he felt disgusted. Angry. Hateful. He vowed that would never happen again.

But there was the girlfriend back in eighth grade. They were together for only the title and after nine months, she broke up with him over phone. And even though he never truly liked her, he still felt ugly, used.
And then the girls in between.


But he had never liked anyone like this.

As he fell asleep that night, a small smile tiptoed across his lips. This could be fun.





Saturday, April 7, 2012

School. Bleh.

School. Bleh.

Back to same old same old.

I did get out of Personal Financial Management and will be going to ....Child Psychology.
Damn Avi! He has convinced me.

So I don't know what to blog for a while. Darn.

I'll think of something.
Meanwhile, here's a catchy song.



Thursday, April 5, 2012

A Semi Normal Three Days

WHOA!! CENTERED FORMAT! 
CRAZY AND ORIGINAL.
(Yay or nay on centered?)


Ha. I never have normal days. 

So yesterday (or two days ago. All the days blend together.) My friend invited me over for steak!

Why the exclamation, you ask?
I say: Stop asking so many questions but

I have NEVER had steak before so it was a first for me.

We (others) all went over and we cooked and sang and ate.

I'm actually editing (liar, haven't even started) the vlog that we made and it should be here soon.
And also on HAF, the other blog I post on. Sometimes.

But some highlights?

-Singing
-Laughing
-Dancing
-Cooking
-Random car trip to Rainbow
-Dancing. With tinfoil.
-Nearly setting the house on fire
-Random drive to Lunds
-Random movie night (Jonah Hill in the "The Sitter." Mindless humor but still worth a watch)
-Random DQ Blizzard run (Oreo Cheesequake is a new flavor and I thought it wasn't bad)

And others that you'll see in the vlog and consequent post. Which I will do. Don't worry. Wipe the tears away. It's okay.

So that brings up to day two (I think).

Fast forward a boring morning of AP studying (HA! I FINALLY DID IT!)
It was free ice cream cone at Ben and Jerry's so a bunch of us headed over.

Which is pretty funny. They say "Only one cone."
Me: Ok.

[One Cone Only]
Employee: What flavor?
Me: Vanilla
Employee: Ok. Enjoy!
****5 Minutes pass******
Me: I'll take a mint double chocolate chip
Employee: What? You were just here.
Me: No, I'm an identical...quadruplet.
Employee: Really? You both wear the same clothes?
Me: Umm...yes. I blame mother.
Employee: Ok, here you go. And don't come back in.
Me: Ok.
*****5 Minutes pass******
Me: I'll have a cookie dough ice cream!
2nd employee: Hey! You were already here!
1st employee: It's okay Sarah. He's an identical triplet.
Me: Quintuplet.
1st employee: Oh yeah! Sorry. An identical quintuplet.
2nd employee: Sorry! Here ya go! Wow, we've never had sextuplets before!
Me:........

And so on. 

But before I left, my brother and I walked in. Just to mess with them.
Oh, the reactions. A price could not be put on them.

We then walked to the beach and just had a good time. 

Then my other brother came late and he asked if there was anything special he should say to get free ice cream. 

And I jumped at the chance.

Brother: So should I say anything? You know to get the free ice cream?
Me: Yes.
Brother: Yeah, what?
Me: Ask for your ice cream and then ...
Brother: Yeah?
Me: Lean in close and then...
Brother: Um...okay? Yeah?
Me: Say "You are the sprinkly best."
Brother: "You are the sprinkly best?" What?
Me: Yep. 
Brother: Wait! Are you serious?
Everyone else: LAUGHLAUGHLAUGH

Well, it would have been pretty funny.

After that, the group split up and some went to somewhere and we ended up going to Chipotle.
I ran into my college friend and we all sat down and just chilled. But we also wanted to do something "EXTREME." So what did our brilliant minds come up with?

[LEMON/LIME CHALLENGE]
Directions: Take a lemon and/or a lime. Take a bite. Swallow the acid juice and see how contorted your face gets. Rinse and repeat.

I got up to 2 lemon slices and 2 lime slices before I shut down. Tough stuff. I encourage all to try (This was also videotaped so you might get vids! Fingers crossed!). 

After that, we all went and shot hoops for 5 hours. 

So day three.

I woke up.
I studied.
I ate lunch.
I studied.
I ate a popsicle.
I studied.
I ate dinner.
I wrote this blog.

Excitement to the max. Try to contain yourself. 

Spring break is almost over which makes me sad but I hope to have a great next couple of days!

I also wrote a haiku. Cause I wanted to. Kinda sad.


The boy wandered on.
He searched inside for answers.
Yet twas right in front.

Hmm. A sad taste in the mouth to finish. So how about a riddle?

What do you sit on, sleep on and brush your teeth with? 


















Good luck with this one.  


Saturday, March 31, 2012

ONLY GOOD PART ABOUT THE HUNGER GAMES

Just...wow. 

Donuts and Movies

Before I start, I realize that when I blog, it's pretty long and rantlike....
Hopefully everyone enjoys that!
I also favor lists. And I say "So" a lot. And various other quirks that you've probably noticed (and grown to love? Hopefully!)

So the past two days have been...what's the word....daring? Yeah, that sounds good.
But for some reason, I can't remember everything that I did <-- Not a good sign.
But here is everything I DO remember.
ONWARD!


DAY ONE:
I woke up with every intention of starting AP studying. I was going to do it. You know me. When I make a promise, I keep it. For sure.

(How Things Went Down)
-Woke up
-Ate breakfast
-walked around doing nothing and started to talk to myself
-"I'll start in an hour!"
- Went on YouTube (SO MANY POINTLESS VIDEOS!!)
-"I'll start after lunch! No doubt!"
-Lunch
-"Just gotta clean up the house! Sibi, you can't possibly study in a dirty house!"
-Clean
-"Huh! You're kind of hungry! Go grab a snack, grab a seat, grab a pencil and get to work! WHOO!"
-Snack
-Sit down to study when **TEXT**
-"Would I like to shoot hoops for an hour at the high school? Well, I've had a pretty stressful day. I have deserved this break! Ok!"
-"Sibi, take a nap first! You need the energy to shoot...and oh yeah! To study too!"
-Go to high school
-Shoot hoops for six hours (time management > Sibi)
-"Well I am hungry! Off to Super America for food! Healthy...umm...yes!"
-Arrive at S.A. and skip protein shakes, fruit bars, water and go to bakery stuff.

[Donuts Fiasco]
So we (my friend, my two brothers and me) decided we wanted as much food as we could get with limited money and a Super America Values card.
We bought:
-12 donuts
-A pack of Swedish Fish
-Box of Sour Patch

Because our common sense was at all time low, we thought that the best idea would be to each eat 3 donuts, a 1/4 of Swedish Fish and Sour Patch. But my friend said "Nahh. I'll only have one donut and all the Swedish Fish."

Me: Oh! That's fine! I'LL JUST EAT FIVE DONUTS! IN FIVE MINUTES! ME, WORRIED? NO WAY! SOUR PATCH KIDS? YES PLEASE!"

Please remember that common sense was very very low at this point.

Sibi's Emotions vs Number of Donuts Consumed
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Donut # 1: Yeah, I'll feel great! I could eat these all day!
Donut # 2: Wow! Still good! Keep em coming!
Donut # 3: Oh god why. I hate myself. I hate donuts. I hate everyone. I hate life.
Donut # 4: Sibi became Dumbledore in the sixth book. Remember? When DD was drinking that goopy stuff and he was crying and lying and trying to die?
Donut # 5: Diabetes is imminent. I can feel my life shortening. I feel the cold claws of a sugar coma sink into my shoulder as glucose clogs up my arteries. I FUCKING HATE DONUTS.

So I went home and didn't blink at all. I went upstairs to my room to fall asleep when my parents call out "You hungry? We got some donuts."

*FADE TO BLACK*

Well that was day one.

DAY TWO:

So I woke up feeling like crap. And as usual I "forgot" to APS (AP Study). But then my friend texts me
"Do you wanna go just hang out at the mall? For like a couple of hours?"
Yes. Let's go.

So we leave the house around 11:30 and we meet up with others at Lund's and herd into cars and drive down to Nicollet.

Remember how I said we were lacking sense yesterday? Well, day two was wayyy worse.

On the ride, we kept screaming at passing cars. I won't say exactly what but.. Here. This is a "censored" version of what was shouted at cars.

-[Absorb] my [Male sexual organ]
-[Intercourse] a Gorilla
And the best one? ("Best" is used very loosely)
-[Intercourse] my [Male sexual organ]

Why did we say/scream these things? Why is the sky blue? Why do donuts suck?
NO ONE KNOWS.

So we arrive and we park, which in itself was a problem.

"Park there!"
"No! It's too close!"
"There?"
"NO!! Not enough space!"
"Well how about that one? That looks good."
"No."
"Well why the [Intercourse] not!?"
"I just hate that spot."
"AHHHHHHHHHH."

After we park and wipe away the tears from fighting, we start walking.
Now imagine this scene.
We're walking. And I was drinking an Organic Chocolate Milk (I call them Moo Moo Milk)
And then I ask the crucial question: "Does anyone actually KNOW where the mall is?"

We stop. We fret. We cry. We pull out internet phones. We search. We locate. We laugh. We dance. We walk. We receive stares. We walk faster. We get followed. We panic. We tear up. We hide in a building.

But the building we walk into is close to the actual mall so life is good. As soon as we enter the building, I realize one thing. There are a lot of Indians here. Just everywhere.
And they all look the same.
They all have acid washed jeans. They all have mustaches. They all have lunch totes. They all roll in groups of 3+.

It's creepy.

So we find a food court because, well, we haven't eaten in about two hours (Teenage metabolism rules!).
We find a court and we begin to eat.
My brother pulls out the Flip video camera (which goes with us everywhere. You never know.) and we quickly clear a space and he does a Corkscrew (a one footed backflip running forward and twisting upside down 360 degrees. In layman terms). We sit down again and look around. There are a few stares and a couple claps and smiles. BUT MOSTLY NO ONE NOTICED/CARES!!

That felt good. Why? (EGOTISTICAL MOMENT HERE)
Every where that we go, people stare, point, take pics, recognize us, something.
While that may seem fun, it gets to be annoying. Constant attention kills.
So when we were deemed "normal," it felt good. To fit in. To not stand out. To just have a normal day with the guys.

So we then proceed to leave and we set up one main objective: WANDER. We agreed on this objective and said we'd make more along the way (we never did).

As we were walking around, we found the movie theater place. We decided to watch a movie and thus a battle broke out. Hunger Games vs 21 Jump Street.

Hunger Games won by a close margin and before we went in, another battle broke out: a tricking/ dancing battle.

STOP! Before I go on, you should realize this.
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME.
I will be myself regardless of the situation and if you don't like it, that's fine. If I want to dance, so be it.
If you think I'm crazy, that's cool too.
I don't judge people and you shouldn't either.
Back to the action.

So we start tricking and I start dancing. Remember, I can't dance which made everything more exciting.
A small crowd forms right in the movie lobby and our biggest fans in the group were a group of black people
cheering every time we did a move and a mom and her two 2 year old daughters who would clap every time. It was pretty awesome.

But just as things were going well, this random guy comes in and tells us to stop. We didn't know what to do because the guy was wearing a Minnesota Wild Sweatshirt with blue jeans and didn't even look like he worked at the mall. But we are good people so I apologized on everyone's behalf and we started to leave.
But the crowd was angry at the man. Which was kind of funny because that guy sucked.

We go in and watch the Starvation Competition. Annnnddddd, it sucked.
Sorry if you're a big fan. The movie was over hyped and the book was pretty bad too.
The only good thing about the movie? Katniss Everdeen or Jennifer Lawrence.

SHE. WAS. HOT. Well usually. But there were some scenes where she looked terrible. As in horrendous.
So we left and went back to our objective of wandering.

I don't know if you girls who read this have set plans for your Mall days. Are you guys like:
"We're going to (insert store here) and then here and here and lunch here for 200 calories and then here and then here......"
Because guys don't do that.
We wander. Just by nature.

So we walk around. For about four hours. Just talking about nothing, laughing at even less and looking at zilch. But oh man was it fun.

By now we are starving. Some phrases during our hunger? Sure, you asked for it.
1. No one in the world has ever been this hungry. Ever.
2. Man, these are the true Hunger Games.
3. I'm going to eat my own foot.
4. I can't see.
5. I can't breathe.
6. I can't feed.
7. That's an iPod Touch, not an iPod Munch.

At one point, I started walking and talking to random group of girls due to hunger. They were all pretty nice and we talked for a couple of minutes before I went back to my actual group.

Then we battled over food. Pot Belly? Cosi's? Basil's Restaurant? Subway?
We walked all the way into Pot Belly's and then walked out to wander again to Lee Ann Chin.

We buy our crappy, MSG-filled food and for some reason we kept laughing at everything.
But we realized that we ordered too much so we'd have to get some take home boxes.
So I go and ask "Hi! We ordered too much food and we were hoping to get some boxes to take the food home?"
Her reply? "No, we don't give out boxes."
Me: "Huh?"
Asian lady: "How many you need?"
Me: "Umm...five?"
Chinese store owner: "Ok, Here you go."
Me: ....

WHY DID SHE TROLL ME? I will never know.

So we pack up our stuff and then wander again. We realize that we were supposed to be home 5 hours ago. We start to head back to the car which is ....where?

We all forgot where the car was. So what do we, as super cool, in control seniors, do?
We cry.

Eventually we find the car and as we are paying the fee, my friend yells "I love you" to the cash register lady. And I kid you not, she looked extremely happy! YEAH! We made her day!

We're driving home and my driving friend keeps swerving and we almost die and cause others to almost die.
We decide to stop for ice cream at Coldstone so we stop by.

My friend had to leave so we bid him adieu and we go in and out of Coldstone. Turns out no one wants ice cream.

My friend texted me hours ago "basketball?" and we decide to head over to WHS courts.
We find them all sitting there, powwow style. We shoot and we leave. To nowhere.

As we are driving home, my friend kiddingly says "Another movie? Haha."

We screech to a stop and all yell "YEAH!"
We zoom forward to Mann 12 and pull up. My friend says he needs some money so we walk to Cub.

We enter Mann and it's packed! A movie theater packed on a Friday!? How preposterous!?!?

We enter the theater and the movie starts.

THE MOVIE WAS HILARIOUS! Like seriously. 21 Jump Street was probably the funniest movie I've seen at the movie theater in a long time.
 Go and watch it. I'll wait. It's not a problem.
Back already? Good, huh? See what I mean?

After that we head home. 9 hours late. My parents are mad but I stumble upstairs.
And I'm out.

*MOVE TO DARKNESS*

TODAY:
Woke up at 7:30 and go to work.

Butts? What is he talking about? Why is it in the title?
So my friend and I worked from 8:00 to 1:00 and then decided to work out.
We do all of these crazy new moves that I've never seen and we finish doing lunges.
And for some reason, my rear end hurts. Thought you should know.

So yeah.
That was the last two..three days.

By Products of the two days?
-A swollen knee from basketball
-Sore body
-Fatigue
-lost voice (from screaming)
And various other injuries

Moral of the story? Donuts suck, common sense should be more common and life is crazy but fun.

If you read the whole thing, again congratulations. Here are two gold stars!
(If you can't see them, it's cause I know you didn't read the whole thing)

If there any questions I should answer, anything I should blog about, anything else, just let me know!























Don't eat donuts.